How?

It's so hard to keep a secret.

How can I express myself without revealing?
It's an irony, so contradicting.

I want to type something, I want to see it in words, deep in my heart I want certain people to know what I am expressing.

But... but...

I don't know if I can trust myself to do this, to open up my wound for others to nurse, to strip myself naked in vulnerability...

I don't know if I can trust people who read this; they may even use my words against me, they may be shocked or appalled by my revelation of my pain. I cannot allow this to happen.

Sigh why is midnight my most jiwang period of a day?

Oh Lord, only You know...