Monday, October 27, 2008

The cure that kills

Posted: 26 Oct 2008 01:14 AM CDT

“Healing from duty, and not from Christ, is the most desperate disease.”

- Thomas Wilcox, “Honey Out of the Rock



Blogger's note:
This serves as an earnest reminder to those who value their worth on programmes, duty and positions in church, rather than on Christ to whom they serve through these.

I pray that those who have yet to taste and realise the trueness of Christ to set their eyes on things above, rather than things that are 'linked' to above...

Sunday, October 26, 2008

Entry 5

“You’ve got to be kidding me,” I mouthed these words as I shot a stare of disbelief across the meeting table.

My youth group leader caught my stare and flashed his signature winsome smile in return. It was obvious that he was very pleased with his idea to begin with. Or was it my reaction that he was enjoying?

Then I shifted my glance across nervously to the far right corner of the meeting table.

Her fingers were doing legerdemain with her pen as she hung onto every word in the meeting. There was no change in her expression. My guess was that she was oblivious to the telepathic protest I was engaging with him that moment. And so was everyone else in the room.

Half of me wanted to shoot right through the ceiling in excitement, the other half of me wanted to shoot him instead. With such disunity boiling inside me, it was a wonder that I could still keep a composed front and let my legs do the fidgeting under the table unnoticed at the same time.

“So shall I leave this to both of you to work on together on your own?”

“No problem,” she said cheerfully, with a notch of confidence.

My stomach twisted in uncertainty. “Yeah,” I said, trying to mirror her enthusiasm. It would be heartbreaking for me to say no since she already gave her full support for his idea.

“Hey,” she turned towards me. “Let’s do our best, yeah?” she said in an encouraging tone. Her eyes squinted as she nodded her head.

Her words struck me with motivation.

Look at her, I thought. She is all prepared and willing to serve even though she already knew how heavy this responsibility is. Why are all these self-doubts in you?

I mustered up.

“Awesome,” I smiled. “I can always learn a thing or two from you about emceeing.”

“Glad to share,” she replied. “Looking forward to working with you.”

My youth group leader stretched himself back on his chair with a satisfied grin. I turned to him and gave him a nod. Once again, I admited that he really knew his stuff as a leader when it came to planning and decision-making.

Indeed, God, it is amazing to see how You bless each person with unique gifts to serve.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Jeremiah 29:11

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."



Blogger's note:
This is absolutely comforting for those who often felt that the world is against them and their plans often fail. Trust in the Lord for we know that His ultimate plan for us is always perfect, perhaps we have yet to see in God's view...
Talking about blessings in disguise :p

Sunday, October 12, 2008

How ironic it is that...

...when in times of real need, others tend to comment on my outer appearance rather than on my character itself...

Hmm...

Saturday, October 11, 2008

I have to make a decision

Sigh...

It may be painful but it worths to what God would want me to do.
To serve His purpose and other's.
For pure and true thoughts and intentions.

Sigh...

I must do it. And I shall do it willingly. Even if it hurts me or maybe others, I know God intends that for His will...
Let His strength and wisdom guide me as I tread this unknown path.

Oh God...

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Only Christ can Cleanse the Guilty Conscience

Posted: 07 Oct 2008 01:54 AM CDT

“There is no greater burden in this world than the guilt of our sin. Other burdens weary the feet or the back; this burden wearies the soul. People who abhor the idea of a blood-shedding God may write platitudes about the goodness of man. People may say that we are finding our destiny out of a Darwinian soup. Perhaps we are not yet what we might be, but we are certainly not guilty, they insist. But in a moral universe ruled by a holy God, such words will not wash away the reality of the things we have done.

If you come to recognize how your words have torn the hearts of others as knives tear the flesh; if you think for just a moment how your neglect of duty and selfish pursuit of gain have meant sorrow and woe for real people; if you merely ask how many men and women in this world have real cause to resent you, to wish you had never crossed their paths; if you take stock of God’s holy and unyielding law and your incessant violation of it, then your conscience will speak against you about what you really are and deserve. You will crave a cleansing such as Christ alone can give.”

- Richard D. Phillips, Hebrews: Reformed and Expository Commentary (Phillipsburg, NJ: P & R Publishing, 2006), 305.



Blogger's note:
This is just simply beautiful...
It sketches the beauty of humility and humanity under God's grace right where it should be...
My dear friends, let us not allow the world to dictate our innocence using its own standards, nor to permit our guilty self to block our sight on God...
Instead let us rely on what our holy God dictates, and may our sinful self clears our paths straight to Him and lead us back to His grace, love and mercy...

Monday, October 6, 2008

Something to colour up this place...

I find that this blog really lacks colour :p

Anyway I would like to share one of my few things in life that I truly adore and love.

Ta-da!

The oh-so-gorgeous Siberian Husky!


I love this dog so much, I'll melt when I see one...

Handsome and strong, loyal and family-loving, puppy in heart and sturdy at work, faithful and diligent, innocent yet determined, playful and fun-loving...
(http://www.dogbreedinfo.com/siberianhusky.htm)

Haha...
Sounds like I'm listing criteria for a dream man *embarrassed*
But this is my dream pet.
If only I have the money... *sad*

Saturday, October 4, 2008

Entry 4

Hectic, hectic, hectic.

That was the only adjective that existed in my vocabulary to describe my schedule that semester. There were assignments to complete, journals to review, experiments to perform, practice sessions to attend, and the list never seemed to end.

I felt like a proverbial chicken with its head chopped off.

* * * * * * *

The view of the campus flashed across the window next to my seat as the campus bus whisked through. Exhausted, my bleary eyes lazily pointed to every passing lamp posts as my overloaded mind struggled to unload the fatigue, which somehow became a permanent fixture inside.

At the sudden, a familiar figure between two of the lamp posts jolted my senses. It was like a re-enacted scene from an assassin movie Wanted…

Long tall silhouettes of the lamp posts zoomed by in a row.
At a heartbeat, the speed suddenly zeroed.
An image of a lady between two of the lamp posts emerged.
Another heartbeat, the image halted.
In a split second, it disappeared in a zoom.
And the repeating patterns of long tall silhouettes resumed.

That was her!

I jerked in my bus seat and quickly craned my neck towards the back. She was already out of the view by then. Laughing at my own silliness, I slid back into my seat and pretended to look at my cell phone. My sixth sense felt many startled pairs on eyes on me in the bus…

* * * * * * *

It has been six days since I last met her. The actual thing was we did come across each other in the campus many times after that, but our conversations were nothing beyond this repetitive monotonous script:

A: Hey.
B: Oh hi, there.
A: How are you?
B: Good. How about you?
A: I’m fine too.
B: Oh, I’m on my way to a lecture now. What about you?
A: Me? I have a group discussion soon. See you.
B: Take care then. Bye.

Friday, October 3, 2008

Easier said than done

Most of the time, the best decision in life is always the most painful one and it takes greater courage to work that decision rather than to make it...

But when you look at it, the pain that will suffice from poor decision in long-term would be much worse when compared.

So, stay strong, my friend and make the best decision for life, and work it. There's no guarantee you can avoid pain but at least it's for a while and it worths the shot...

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

How ironic it is that...

... we only wait for celebrations like Raya, Chinese New Year, Deepavali, Christmas or Merdeka to SHOW our multiracial harmony, but in our daily lives we witness racial segregation at our face and tolerate leaders who shows contempt at our Malaysian culture?

* * * * * * *

Tha fact that we seek to use law to govern racial accommodation in our country shows how sadly dependent we are in our thoughts and virtues that we need to be tied to rein like a wild horse.

Wake up people, educate your sons and daughters, and brothers and sisters!
Practise what you preach!
Walk your talk and pay your lip service through how you live and interact with others.

And it takes two to tango.
What good will come if one side makes effort to seek peace and harmony while the other refuses?

Start with a true policy, strengthen by mutual effort and seal with purity.
Right on the dot, without compromise.
The world is a already corrupted place to begin with, so start cracking with larger whip to make a difference.

"Ethnicity is a beautiful intricate priceless fabric wovened by our creative God before it was tainted by the dregs of selfishness of human politics," I dare to quote.

Please think about it. I'll explain more in the next post.
(This is the first time I posted more than ONE paragraph for 'How ironic...' label)